ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Friday, May 09, 2008
its your day.
to that someone special:
there is someone who will always remember this day.
happy 20th birthday.
this is the 7th birthday wish to you since we know each other and each time is very meaningful to me.
i wish that there is someone special to celebrate this day with you, and i wish you the best on this special day, and also every other day till your next birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
*i wont be alone. || 9:40 AM
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
if you tell me to.
i am feeling extremely sleepy and tired today.
well, in fact, everyday.
know what, my whole body is killing me for the past 1 month, its itching all over, with some weird rashes. i have absolutely no idea what am i allergic to. but well, have tried seeing the doctor twice in the beginning of April, went home with some medication and cream. and well, it was quite useful, and some of the rashes went off, and the itch became bearable.
my granny says that i might be suffering from some disease called the "feng mo". which dont look familiar to me. she says that im not supposed to be eating chocolates. holy crap. i cleanly forgotten about that and finished the huge bar of Cadbury in the refrigerator within 3 days. and yes, i should have believe my granny, not to suspect that she's making all those theory up just to stop me from eating HER bar of chocolate. because by the end of the 3rd day, the itch started again and new rashed appeared in new places. and this time, its totally UNBEARABLE.
so i had to took a half-day leave and went to see the company clinic at Jurong Point for a jab. OUCH! that handsome and young doctor could have been a litte more gentle with that thing. anyway, the medical bill added up a total of $70 with that injection and i was told by the clinic attendant and my medical budget has reached its limit! like what the f**k! i had to pay that bill myself!! and that day was only the 2nd of May!
today, i understood from my colleague that the medical budget that the company is giving us is only $150! that totally dosent sounds like a medical benefit to me when we're entitled to 14 days of MCs! argh. blame myself for taking so many MCs for the past few months.
spending $70 on the 2nd day of the month is only the appetizers. May happens to be a very EXPENSIVE month for me as both my mom's and granny's birthday fall on May. last Sunday, i gave my granny a not-too-small-and-not-too-big ang pow for her 60th Lunar birthday. nice granddaughter. and my unlucky mom, her birthday is towards the end of May, so OOPS im sorry. mommy, you shouldnt be expecting anything from me though. and besides, she's so much richer than me right now. she just struck 4D few weeks ago. and it was really kind of her to get me a new bag, something i've been waiting for months. =D love my mom, love my bag!
i've been typing this entry for the 2nd time right now, forgetting to save my draft is definitely a very big blunder!
anyway, its May and i love May. not only its Maybelyn's month, and the month with a very special day.
stay tuned...
*i wont be alone. || 1:52 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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