ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Sunday, August 21, 2005
ooh. i had a very creamy and cheesy day. hehe.
today's precious phuihae's bday. asked her to come over my place to celebrate and she came at hell-early 10plus! zapped me out from my dreamland. argh. haha. cooked pasta for our lunch, very, very creamy and cheesy pasta, wid lots and lots of mushrooms and meatballs. gulps. told her i didnt prepare any pressie for her but surprised her wid her bday cake, Tiramisu. GULPS. shall recommend this cake to everyone. gotten it from Takashimaya's marketplace. de stall called Swissbake. de cakes there are all yummilicious. esp. de Tiramisu and Oreo Cheesecake, personally i dun have a liking for cheesecake at all, but tat oreo cheesecake jus make me break my own rules. hehe. and their prices are VERY reasonable. well, not de best cakes tat i've tasted, but definitely a good choice. hehe. and so, we two gluttons finished de whole cake in like 15mins. hahaha. fats! fats! FATS!!! yea, den walked to LRT station meet ai qi. she passed phuihae bday pressie. den continue watching vcd at my place. hehe. she gotta leave early to meet her mum. after walking her to LRT station, jalan jalan at pasa malam. hehe. bought two cheesy sausages. omg. so cheesy. hehe. and fatty. lol.
so happy to have her around. always feel so happy and relaxed in her presence. hope our friendship could last. i cant stand to have another broken friendship anymore. sigh.
gotta study for marketing final test. sigh. better pass. ciaos.
*i wont be alone. || 9:01 PM
Friday, August 19, 2005
sometimes i love my grandma alot, really alot. but times like now, i really hate her. damn. its jus smth wrong that i said. does she need to use that kind of language and tone to scold me? i mean i dun really mean what i say. its jus a comment, a statement. not anything more. why do she have to take it so seriously and use smth so vulgar to scold me? and when i fight for my right, she still can tell me that there's nth wrong for her to scold that way, because im her granddaughter, so its her right to scold me whatever she wants. DAMN. oh, so now she's telling me that "granddaughter" is not human, is an ANIMAL? just because she's higher up there, she could do watever she wan. everytime we quarrel, whether is it my fault, it jus ended up to be my fault. and my mum will get the news and start calling me to scold me more. i tot my mum is more opened and know the fact that the elder is not always right. but my mum always says, "she's ur grandma, so she's right". like wat the fuck! dumb mother. perhaps, being tolerating wid my grandma for 36yrs, my mum is already immuned to my grandma's way of doing things. so no matter how hard we fight for ourselves, the right person is always Empress Dowager. ya ya. whatever happen to justice? phew. its really okay for me to tolerate her naggings and sometimes her scoldings, but the ONLY thing tat i couldnt stand is why am i always the wrong one?! Empress Dowager should start watching talkshows like "Let's Shoot" on Channel U. learn about what youngsters like me is thinking, and what are the consequences for using the wrong way to discipline youngsters like us? of cos, im not saying im one of them. but i think, according to the talkshow, reasons for teenagers suicidal cases are not only becos of relationships, but quite a no. of them are becos of family problems. and de biggest family problem they faced is miscommunications and wrong way of discipline, which is wat i am facing right now. Empress Dowager jus doesnt understand her little princess. her little princess doesnt wan to be right. she wants to be understood. thats all. =(
enough of this.
and im so stunned by Proj. Superstar results. i was totally shocked and happy when Kelvin was announced the winner. my god. how could that be possible? and needless to say, ever-so-powerful Kelly made it in too. thou what i expected was totally opposite. initially im really worried that Xinhui would get in but Kelly got it. then i tot that de male finals results was really obvious and it mus be Junyang who would win but Kelvin got in! hehe. so now de very finals would be the K's fight. lol. tough decision for me thou. hehe, but my vote goes to KELLY my goddess of cos. wahaha. alright, enough of this oso.
today biz etiquette's presentation was great. my group presented second and thou de outcome wasnt wat we expected, but still considered satisfactory. hehe. ms. zarina went thru alot about dressing today. and we're supposed to do a tough but interesting assignment for her. due 2wks later. hehe. de assignment gives me a very good reason to go shopping! woah. hehe. and tts our last assignment which carries the heaviest weightage of de whole module. mus jiayou. =) and this means biz etiquette is going to end. gonna miss my class SO much. new and old friends. i mus say this is my fav. IS class so far. and ms. zarina, my fav. lecturer. thank goodness i've her for this module. hehe. but really hope she doesnt go into labour during class time. haha.
i miss my precious friend alot. hehe. gonna see her this sunday to celebrate her bday at my place. going to fix her some nice food, i hope will be nice. and maybe surprise her wid Kelly's autographed singles. hehe. and pamper myself wid one too.
phew, feeling rather sucky these few days. dunno why either. no mood to do anything. oh ya, did i mention i nearly got debar by Wee Gim Theng?! my goodness. i knew its a no-good to receive email from him. argh. first was to inform me about my poor attendance which i did mention long long time ago. second time is debarment. wth. i prayed hard that i would never receive any emails from him AGAIN! argh.
so much for today. long entry. phew.
*i wont be alone. || 12:14 AM
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
boredom really kills. one day im going to die in school, in class. really. argh.
argh, i've forgotten to post an impt entry on 12 august. so now, im blogging a belated. happy belated birthday, dreams-spirited-away.blogspot.com!!! -_- hehehe.
Derrick and Silver was eliminated. im not surprised at all. sigh, but afterall Derrick's my favourite male contestant. =x its okay. now left wid Junyang and Kelvin. how i wish Kelvin would win de male's finals. but i noe chances are slim. but Kelvin still has my vote! i wonder how does it feel, not able to see anything. but still make it through so many rounds of tough competition and get into finals. he mus be really happy when he scored de highest last week. hehe. i nearly cry when hearing him sing. his voice goes right into my heart. so smoothing. hehe. and i hate myself for falling asleep last thurs and not able to watch Kelly's wonderful performance and catch de results. and i hate myself even more for not be able to wake up on sunday to catch de encore telecast!! argh! im maybelyn, de big sleepyhead. hehe.
went to find mummy last sunday. had lunch at her place. yums, one of my MANY favourites, lala. was supposed to shop for a new pair of shoes, but couldnt find a pair tt i liked. argh. shoes! was rather late when i was abt to go home. so mummy gave me cabfare. hehe. love her.
met up wid eldora, emily and yahui to do biz etiquette proj. ytd. was really fun working wid them. and so far our proj. is progressing great. de script tt me and eldora wrote was hilarious. hahahaha. such a pity i wasnt in drama club. haha. perhaps i could become a comedian. wahaha. laugh people, laugh! hahaha. i was telling eldora alot of 'cold' jokes this few days. shall share one today. hehe.
there's a matchstick named Whoever.
de weather is very hot and his head got itchy.
so he scratched his head, and BOOM, his head caught fire.
(get it? becos he's a matchstick.)
tts just part one. still got part two.
de matchstick was then sent to hospital.
and when he's discharged, guess wat he become?
...
...
...
...
...
de answer is : cotton bud. dun get it?
becos his head was bandaged so he become cotton bud.
not funny? hehe. it will be more funny if i tell u personally. hahaha. i tink its very funny lor. okay, -_-
no more entertainment. ciaos.
although there's confusion
but we'll find a solution
to get my heart close to you.
*i wont be alone. || 10:27 AM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
happy 40th birthday Singapore! wohoo!!
my precious friend phui hae came to my place today to celebrate National Day. hehe. not celebrate exactly, but jus to be together. haha, miss her SO much. gave her her early bday card and she's so damn touched! lol. thou i've got not enuff sleep, but still wake up early to welcome her! watched vcd, ate tidbits, wreck havoc in de kitchen, talking, fighting, everything. so fun. and we created a drink. hehe. i named it HoCoLate. its a mixture of Horlicks, Coffee and Chocolate sauce. wahaha!!! its not bad actually. lol!!! wanted to make her some jelly, but she got to leave early for dinner at home. but luckily she din stay for de jelly. haha. too much water wid gelatine. tasteless! hee, will make up for her. lol.
got my new specs, finally. wahaha. thanks to granny for sponsoring. hehehe. new white specky. hearts it. oh and its 95% similar wid grace's. her got some blue lining by de side. mine's totally white. haha. and i passed my 2 retests. hooray. there's a quiz tml. guess i shall start studying now. ciaos.
my tomorrow will be better, im sure.
*i wont be alone. || 11:38 PM
Friday, August 05, 2005
results for the Proj. Superstar 2nd Semi-finals.
Derrick - 36.5
Jason - 30 [GET OUT! YEAH! HOORAY!]
Kelvin - 28.5
Junyang - 41.5
im super stunned by Junyang's results. even higher than Kelly's 40.5!!! no wonder ling likes him so much. hehe. poor Kelvin, get de lowest this time. but im so sure tt he did better than stupid assy Jason. argh. thou i dun really noe how to appreciate de song tt Kelvin sang, but he has my vote. yeah.
Xinhui - 38.5 [which idiot posted in friendster says she got 40.5? scare me!]
Candyce - 33 [stunned!]
Kelly - 39.5 [awesome!]
Silver - 29
and again, Kelly's performance is so marvellous! fanta-bulous! and woah, she's de first to get in to 3rd semi-finals! thou de hostess says de results is in random order. hehe. Kelly rocks, and indeed a pretty rose! and i actually tink Candyce dun really look pretty. wonder why alot of pple says she's gorgeous. gorgeous?! define please.
hehe. as i wished. Jason is OUT of proj. superstar! yes yes yes! hooray! haha. i SO EXPECTED IT! woah! congrats Kelvin! and Candyce's out. quite stunned! i seriously wonder how much Silver pays pple to vote for her. oops! she's not SO GOOD actually. at least i tink so. i tot Candyce did a better job tonite. hmmm, but watever, Kelly rocks. hehe.
alright, some serious blogging. grace's complaining abt my not-updated blog. hehe.
went for makan spree last saturday, with kristen, joanne, liangzhen, teresa and andrew. geylang again. hehe. ate almost de same food as last mth. shall not list them out. but one very impt thing to mention! these 5 irritating, unkind and watever word u can use to describe some cruel pple, actually surrounded me and ate DURIANS!!! ~!@#!!@!#!@#!!! eeyer! alright. enough of DURIANS! =x
had a boring school week. din attend lessons on tues and wed. dun ask why. i jus din go. hehe. but still went back to sch for scm retest on wed, a very funny and scammed retest. wahaha! oh yeah. wanted to talk abt my new IS class. hahaha. taking Biz Etiquette now and its oh-so fun!!! in de same class wid june, paige and sheralene. haha. fun fun and FUN!!! lol.
nth much to blog. but jus to satisfy my ardent blog reader GRACE! wahaha. so here you go girl, happy? hahaha. ciaos!
*i wont be alone. || 12:01 AM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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