ooh-la-la.


i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.


one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.

i finished watching all 3 seasons of my favourite drama of the year on friday night! whee! The L Word, its just FUCKING nice! and now im waiting very impatiently for the 4th season which will only be screened in 2007! how i wish tml is 2007!! argh. here are some pictures of The L Word.


this is the promo picture of the 2nd season. =)



my favourite character in the show! and also happened to be my NEW FOUND LOVE!
Shane McCutcheon, casted by Katherine Moennig!!!! i love her!! isnt she HOT?! *BIG GRINS*



my favourite couple in the show!
Shane and Carmen!!! Carmen de la Pica Morales, casted by Sarah Shahi. the ending for them, just one word to describe. SAD! SAD! SAD! i wan to know what will happen to them next season! i wan Season 4!!!!! i wan tml to be 2007!!! =( i wan Doraemon to give me a time machine!! =( =(

i got nothing much to blog about actually. holidays is not just boring. but its VERY BORING. so im just going to keep watching The L Word, Seasons 1-3 till Season 4 is out! yes now im talking! haha!!!

ciaos. Shane ROCKS!

*i wont be alone. || 3:01 AM

Sunday, September 10, 2006

i had my most tiring and bad Saturday ever, not because i failed the whole purpose of the day. but something unpleasant and of course unexpected happened, making my already bad day worse. well, i could actually go home and have a good sleep despite my failure. however, that horrible issue just made me feel as though there's thousands needles piercing through my heart. or like someone grip my heart and give it a tight squeeze. oh man, i felt so suffocated. and no, i am not exaggerating. i am really feeling very terrible. its like someone put on a fastener or something on my neck, and pull it real tight till i've got no space to breathe. freak. i really dont understand why am i feeling so horrible. nobody does. i mean there's really no strings attached, totally no connection. argh forget it. i dont even know what am i talking about already. all i know is that i am freaking upset about what happened yesterday afternoon, till i screwed everything up at night. i blamed no one but myself. who am i to interfere? who am i to get angry? just who am i?! okay period. please dont come and ask me about anything. dont remind me again. =(

it was supposed to be happy yet it didnt turn out good.

*i wont be alone. || 11:33 PM

she is she, nobody but SHE.

maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.

she loves...


she wishes for...

she doesnt know, either.

thou shall speak...

you, you, you and YOU.

specials.
jamie; jamieII; peixi.

zhenghua(pri & sec).
addelyn; aizhen; aloysius; azura; calin; christina; denise; desmond; jessamine; kailing; peishi; pengchuan; qianhui; shiyun; valerie; yeesiang; yenkai.

ngee ann.
alex; andrea; anne; ben; benjamin; bimei; celine; celine.teo; clara; debbie; diyana; dzul; eldora; esther; faiz; giap; grace; guangrong; huiting; huiying; jasmine; jaymie; jieying; joanne; joanne.soh; kimberly; kristen; kristie; liting; lisa; lorraine; myra; paige; piak; regynna; samantha; shihui; shikin; teresa; tiffany; weixun; yuwen.

friends.
annabel; bingbing; charles; deon; elaine; esther; farrah; gerniece; huiling; ivy; jacelyn; jas; jiaming; jiaen; jonathan; meiling; natalie; paula; priss; rachel; sharon; shuping; weilin; xinwei; yiyun.

reveal her past.

August 2004
September 2004
October 2004
November 2004
December 2004
January 2005
February 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
July 2008
September 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
November 2009

understand;

maybelyn;

speak;

mingle;

reminisce;