Wednesday, September 26, 2007
swollen eyes.
i've stopped believing that wednesday is an unlucky day for me. but today, it proved me wrong again. i woke up at 715am. thats bloody late. so i decided to take a cab. and waited for almost half an hour. argh! reached office at 835am. shit man! my pay this month is going to be super little. i had two and a half day of no pay leave last week. due to my moronic digestive system. sigh. i dont want to mention it again. my Taiwan trip funds. =(
life as a perm staff is not good, AT ALL. i have almost nothing to do everyday. all i do is surf net, surf net and surf net! i feel like an useless bum, being paid for nothing in the company. why the hell am i doing in a place where i dont belong to?! argh.
September is coming to an end. 2007 is a super fast year, isnt it? so many things happened, and forgotten. so many people came, and now gone. and November is coming, i'll be hitting the big '2'. that sucks. 2. living in this world for 2decades still hasnt make me a somebody. i am still nothing. 2. does that mean double responsibilities? to commit myself in work, and to start worrying about home, about my family. becoming an adult, i no longer have the rights to live as carefree as i want. i cant do what i want anymore. i cant sleep in all day, skipping work as and when i like. and see, being 20 doesnt make me more sensible, i am still talking nonsense all the time, talking things that even myself dont understand sometimes. oh well, thats me, thats life.
i dont care if im turning 20 or 30 or 40. i just want to be myself.
ps: you calm me down.
*i wont be alone. || 10:14 AM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
I'll Be There For You.
I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love is suicide
You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
And I wasn't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out
I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
-Bon Jovi-
ps: you make it alive.
*i wont be alone. || 4:12 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
99. 99. 99.
99 more days and i'll be flying to Taipei! yes! this time is for real. no changes anymore! nothing, NOTHING can make any changes to our plans again! wooo!!!
super restless day. ah okay, which working day am i not restless? =x
argh. my restaurant manager asked me to go to work last friday but i rejected. because i had a date with the most precious girls in my life, for dinner. so i rejected, and not only i lost the $28 pay, i lost a $50 tips!! might as well take a gun and shoot right through my brains. at this period when $1 is so important to me, i've to lose $50! where's all these rich people when im working!? always appear when im not around. argh! unlucky me! its okay. i shall not complain, since the time spent with my darlings is so much worth than $50. =x
and i am so mad at myself. firstly, i am supposed to be saving money, and last week i spent more than $300. argh. and secondly, i am supposed to be on DIET. but yesterday, i had dinner with my piggy brother at Ichiban Sushi, not only i spent alot, i ATE ALOT. see, i sacrificed my diet to have dinner with him and he still refused to lend me his threadmill. i really need it lah! LIM HUANZHI! better lend it to me, or else!
and seriously, i have to lose weight! at least 5kgs before i go Taiwan! if not, when i return on the 1st Jan 2008, no one will recognise me!! i'll really become a FAT PIG. argh argh argh!
had dinner with my darlings last friday at YouthPark. and i just love my darlings, Jamie, Liling, Peixi, i love you girls so much.
and im moving in with Jamie next week!! for just one week cause no one's at home! this means, i can sleep 1/2 an hour more each day! haha. lazy. lazy. lazy.
ps: and of course, i love my Jam too. =)
*i wont be alone. || 11:37 AM
