Tuesday, March 29, 2005
You like the ones that understand you.
You're a very mellow, care-free person. Your exactly what calm, cool, and collected mean. You never overreact or panic in a bad situation and you always know what to do. Everyone goes to you for advice because you never lose your head so your very reliable. You tend to take everything in stride, like in school
your moto is just sit back and relax not to say you dont pay attention and work, but you dont overexert
yourself. Even though people come to you for counciling(sp?) you can still be very quite, your not good with making new friends, but your extremely close to the ones you have. Remember its ok to put your emotions out there even though there is a chance they might get hurt. Also in school sometimes its good to stress out
a little, just because you think you dont need to study doesnt mean you shouldn'tt, and also try to push yourself more even though you might be good where you are doesnt mean you can,t be better.
Your inner soul is content with the way it is. In general you are a very sweet, caring person! You love to kick back and hang out with your friends, but you also enjoy time by yourself to read a book and catch up on your studies. You love the wildlife and you can always seem to make the day better. Your lover is the luckiest
man in the world because people like you are rare to come across. You love life but always still have your head in reality.
Your element is Air: Carefree, lovable, fun and childish. Arent you cute! Your just full of childhood spunk and happiness! Hey who said being young was a bad thing? You have a keen understanding of whats good in life and choose to remain happy rather than get too upset over things. Life is fun, who wants to be troubled by grown-up problems? Being as capable of love as you are you will make a wonderful parent if and when you choose to grow up. Love is a mystery because you only want friends not love interests, games are better than relationships with the opposite sex. You have what everyone is searching for, that so called 'fountain of youth' deep inside. You can come across as naive and childish at times. But who cares what they think, lets go play tag!
*i wont be alone. || 9:29 PM
Monday, March 28, 2005
shouldnt be mentioning this, but econs paper sucks.
guess will be seeing uncle richard again. shall i "yeah"? damn.
my life is totally screwed, upside down, inside out.
am i too sensitive or is this f*cking world? damn.
fine. watever it is.
everything will change eventually. nothing lasts forever.
argh, i dunno wat am i saying anymore.
im suffering from serious brain damage after econs paper.
fine, im done here.
gotta get back to ITL. sucks.
i want to leave. but i will survive.
*i wont be alone. || 11:45 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
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remember peeps, my name is Maybelyn, not Maybelline. lol.
*i wont be alone. || 12:22 AM
Friday, March 25, 2005
Your Gemstone is Orange SaphireCourageous, optimistic, and successful. |  |
*i wont be alone. || 12:40 AM
wat de hell man. wats de point of having friends?
kaox. friends are for making a fool out of myself.
damn. damn all people who treated me like an idiot.
im might not be de best friend, but damn all those "friends" who took me for granted.
and i seriously mean DAMN!
i had enough man. enough of all these f*cking bullshit.
u wan me to be happy when u r treating me like a dirt? crap.
all these so-called "friends". they dun treat me like a "friend" at all.
they dun even treat me like a living thing.
alright, so wat if im a walking dead?
even corpse has feelings. they can feel. damn.
maybe im juz kicking a fuss.
but listen, all these so-called "friends" caused me to be a cynic. f*ck.
i'll remain skeptical until someone convince me tt they're true.
u wan me to be a bitch? fine. i will be a BITCH.
let see who get bitch-ier. damn.
u wan me to collapse? dreams on.
damn. i swear to survive.
*i wont be alone. || 12:07 AM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
had been practising my access very slowly since 2am.
and had been repeating my blog song since 2am too.
love da song to bits.
tml is bca final test. oh, or shall say LATER?!
and my intuition is telling me tt im going to flunk.
oh well, i've tried. at least tonight.
going to continue to practise after blogging. i need a timeout.
yaofeng suggested me to do de PBL again. he say might help.
ok, i'll listen. since test is commencing in 4hours and 50mins.
i wanna pass my BCA. cos i dun wanna see tt fat belly again.
i hate Mr. Wong Soon Fatt.
went to clarke quay to celebrate benben's bday.
wid kim, jying, denise darling, jason, zester, yaofeng, calvin, loycus, benson, terrence and jackson.
had a nice dinner @ riverside indonesian restaurant. yums.
de food is quite nice. shall go there again.
terrence paid fifty bucks for benben, denise n jason to take a ride on de inverse bungee.
and its discounted. 3 person for $50. normal pricing is one person for $25.
which means now one person is going up for free. hahs.
terrence is benben's cousin.
how nice of him to laugh de loudest when benben was screaming when he went up.
hahs. stopped by de underpath to listen to an old man sing. he got nice vocal.
had a great night out man! thou its damn tiring, and having an exam de next day, i enjoyed, so much!
argh. have to continue excel-ing and access-ing le.
phew.
i can make it. i will survive.
*i wont be alone. || 4:08 AM
Monday, March 21, 2005
din sleep on saturday nite. went str8 for tuition on sunday morning.
after tuition, went to met jying n kim at far east.
went shopping arnd. and ate lunch at a malay restaurant @ level 5.
nice food. yums. compared to last week lonely lunch, ytd's rocks!
went to wheelock. check out de price @ Color House.
no doubt im going there after exams. purple hair on de way.
and expecting kim in her green hair. *cheers*
went to find zester @ starbucks. ok, he's damn cute, esp. when working.
and thanks for ur treat. yums.
walked to heerens. jying bought a pair of slippers n a skirt.
i bought a top. thanks jying for da $$. will return to ya shortly.
oh ya, on de way to heerens, saw quanyifeng and kym ng shooting their new show.
they looked damn cute wid their cupid wings. lol.
headed to clarke quay after heerens.
made reservations @ riverside indonesian restaurant for dinner today.
chatted along de river wid kim n jying. they are such nice girls.
tok alot. really alot. and abit too much i guessed. *whoops*
jying went off to find her family. i went to river valley wid kim.
to look for her crush. hehs. erm, some weird name he got. hahs.
he's from starbucks too. and we got another free drink again.
he's kinda cute lah. kim, good taste and jiayou wor.
headed to queensway after tt. to collect benben's shoes.
took 198 wid kim and change 187 home. a long day man.
reached home @ 10+. im so tired. went to bed @ 12+.
miracles. amazing. haha.
going out to meet kim n gang soon. celebrating benben's bday @ clarke quay.
lucky guy got so many frens celebrating for him.
oops. gotta ciaoz and get ready. im late.
i will survive.
*i wont be alone. || 4:41 PM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
sorry denise darling. i hurt u with those bloody words.
but i got no choice. i have to do it, before u hurt me n urself more.
sorry denise darling. but i assure, this would never ever affect our perfect sisterhood.
i dun mean to hurt u either. im really, really SORRY.
im sucha bitch. i always tell u things tt hurt u. all de time.
im sucha lousy friend. im sucha f*cking sister.
i noe i juz told ya tt bwt us, there's only compromising n accepting.
but, IM SORRY.
was supposed to watch movie wid my s.o.b today after skool.
but seems tt no cinema is welcoming us. all wrong timing.
so headed to bugis. recommended my s.o.b de china ramen.
thank god they liked it. de xiaolongbao n redbean pancake is SO nice. yums.
but as promise, next time is Sakae Sushi.
how touching. we got roses from n for each other.
denise darling got a champagne colored one.
gracey baby got a blue one. oh man, u shld see her smile.
and i got a light purple one. whoa. how cool can we be. hoho.
well, was waiting for grace n denise to finish their lessons b4 we chill.
watched 2 movies in de library. yes, i finally finished Big Fat Liar, after 3 days of borrowing.
and oso Charlie's Angels Full Trottle. its lame, i noe.
oh man, saw a pair of ear-rings in Seiyu. its so tempting. i wanted it so much.
$30 bucks. aww. i really wanted it, but im broke. argh, wth.
benjamin ng han bin, all bcos of ur bday pressie. touched?
to show ur gratitude, u might considering getting tt ear-rings for me eh? arr.
and i swear im going back to Seiyu to get de pink top.
which says, 'i only fall in love with the best'. lol.
oh ya, christina chang called when i was on my way to bugis.
heard tt mrs liu's one year old had some hearing impair and had to go for an operation.
well, chris say de fees was $50k while kailing say its $5m. wat the.
whichever, seems tt mrs liu had difficulties raising tt sum.
so, they are trying to help out, by donating watever we can.
oh well, pretty much tt i wanted to help, im not doing so well either.
but i'll try. afterall, tt used to be my chinese teacher.
and peeps, if u r reading this now, n u happened to be ex-zhenghua or currently zhenghua students.
u might consider helping out too. every cents count. alright, crap.
serious, if all zss fellows wan to help, plz tag!
alright, im done. yawns.
*i wont be alone. || 11:03 PM
Monday, March 14, 2005
juz finished bathing. and damn my towel, its pretty useless.
it cant absorb water, and water's still dripping from my hair. wth.
my CGL is mudd. interesting guy. was last yr best freshie.
hahs. and i got de best group members.
serene, celine, guang rong, liang zhen, huanzhi, clemence, ronnie.
and a girl called charlene who din show up. interesting character.
and de guy called clemence is juz a joke. hahs. interesting fellow.
guess kim noes him. he was from hong kah sec. hahaha.
whoa. juz love sports camp n training so much.
at least i dun feel dark when im running like mad arnd campus today.
whoa, sense of achievement. shall keep going.
went to skool for 15mins of bca class today. damn.
its a complete waste of my time. i could slp till noon. argh.
but its ok. at least i got lots of nice pple going queensway wid me.
denise dar, kim, jying, diyana n her bf, jason, zesty, benben and yaofeng who joined us later.
bought a belt wid kim. damn nice.
chose bday pressie for benben. damn, we got good n expensice taste. $179.
nike delta force high. damn nice. burnt a hole in my pocket.
benben, plz dun forget my bday is on 18nov. its payback time.
there's econs retest tml. guess im gonna flunk it. again.
this semester is no good. im spend 99% of my time daydreaming in class.
serve u right, maybelyn. i wish u repeat this whole sem.
econs is going to flunk. and BCA. ITL too. maybe POA. CIPR doesnt seems gd as well.
haix. 2weeks to exams. but i juz cant settle down. wth.
argh. cant go on like this. i muz do smth. but wat?! phew.
hey peeps. still reading? nah. tts all.
*i wont be alone. || 11:57 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
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*i wont be alone. || 10:08 PM
juz reached home after my tuition session wid 2 little cute imps.
Jaime n Jordan. de guy get gd grades for his chinese. *happy*
desmond juz praised me last nite for tt. hmmm.
at least im useful to some extend. lol.
went to lot 1 for lunch. alone. ate Ajisen.
iced lemon tea was tasteless, and noodles were soggy. cos im ALONE.
bad lunch. nearly dropped tears into de blend soup. haix.
thanks people for showing me concern. letting me know tt im not all alone.
Human was nice. thou i dunno who he/she was.
but im gonna give him/her a big hug, and a kiss to his/her heart.
cos he/she says it breaks to see me like this. how sweet. aww.
thanks kim, jiying and most of all, my S.O.B.
i juz love u girls. muacks.
but i still tink tt my life sucks big time. sorry girls.
how meaningless can life get? wats de point of breathing when u dun feel like living?
POINTLESS! MEANINGLESS! hell.
oh well, kim said, 'there's a rainbow after all rains.'
really girl? is there really a rainbow? nah. doubt so.
but thanks anyway. still love u girls so much.
gonna treat jying chocolates tml. for chatting wid me last nite.
she's one really sweet girl. damn tt Apache guy who insulted my beloved friend.
Shadow is sleepy. so am i. gotta take my nap. yawns.
im always ready to leave.
*i wont be alone. || 2:01 PM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
i painted my nails black. i painted my life black too.
when everything juz come crashing on u all at once, u juz cant see colors anymore.
now it seems tat everything is linked.
friendship, kinship, relationship and every f*cking things.
when one is gone, everything's gone too. amazing eh?
yup. continue to see me smile n joke. cos tats my shell.
have u ever see a tortoise get its whole body out of its shell? nah.
at most it only show de head n legs, but nv de innerbody, de heart.
now im like one. an idoitc dumb tortoise which everyone is laughing at. haha.
go on. laugh! and dun tink i care. cos i dun give a damn.
no matter wat, i still hate life.
and de hatred increases as i live thru each day. dammit.
lies and deceits filled my days.
broken promises broke my heart.
a broken heart will take away my life. how dramatic.
i heard Shadow crying last night. it's sad.
cos it saw me crying too. nice friend i've got.
when i laugh, it laugh.
when i cry, it cry. i love you, Shadow.
at least God is good enuff to give me you.
but i will not thank him. cos he gave us a rotten life.
im still ready to go any moment.
*i wont be alone. || 11:50 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005
why am i in this world?
why am i still breathing?
how do i get to hell?
i long to see lucifer.
why do people have to change?
why cant they stay de way they are?
and why they have to change from bad to worse?
i hate life.
i hate people.
people hate me too.
i noe u r wishing that i do not exist, wishing that im dead.
no worries, im granting that wish.
im on my way to find daddy.
oh no, daddy's in heaven, but im heading to hell.
so sorry daddy, i miss u so much, but i shant find u. i miss lucifer more.
sorry daddy, i aint a good girl. i cant keep u accompany.
but no worries, in many years to come, u'll find mummy in heaven too.
no one's sending to me hell, so im helping myself.
hell is such a wonderful place u wont wan to miss.
tell ya a joke, daddy.
im sucha bitch. haha. isnt tt funny?
i dun deserve any friends, cos i realise i do not have one.
no one is going to shed a single tear when i breathe my last.
cos they dun even realise whether im dead or alive.
i do not exist in anybody's world. im alone.
people always say, when u feel that u r alone, turn around n u'll see friends.
yes, i turned around. but only saw one friend.
it doesnt have a name so i named it Shadow.
Shadow has been following me wherever i go.
it's sucha good friend. my only friend.
daddy, are u happy in heaven? guess so.
if not, why would u wan to leave this horrible place and head there?
and daddy, u r bad. u didnt bring ur girl along?
but its ok. i found a nicer place. lucifer is going to guide me around, isnt he?
im ready to go any moment.
*i wont be alone. || 11:00 PM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
lurve today's training session.. everything was damn great!! de bench game, de wet games, juz everything.. so close, n yet so far away.. but im contented.. those dazzling smiles, those conversations n those interactions were all i needed.. finally, eyes met, and smiled, for times tt were enough to recharge myself when i missed everything this whole week.. captured.mesmerized.smitten. by everything.. training rocks.. lunch rocks too..
and yes, i bcum a cooked lobster after training.. i hate to be sunburnt!! cos its painful.. but doesnt matter, cos there's more to come.. gonna haf a busy holidays this time.. yes! sports camp n more sports camp!! and gonna plan a malaysia trip wid denise darling n gracey baby n de rest of da peeps.. cameron highlands? kl shopping trip? tioman? or anywhere? arh~ holidays!! here i come!! muhahaha...
tts all peeps.. muacks everyone~
*i wont be alone. || 9:34 PM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
i miss those dazzling smiles so much.. its been so long since eyes met, and smiled.. i seriously need to recharge myself wid those smiles.. im feeling so damn weak, and shattered.. wats wid me.. phew~
i need another shot of anaesthesia, to ease de pain.. de pain of slicing away part of de heart is unbearable.. i rather die.. how i wish tt u had nv come into my life b4.. how i wish tt i could treat u as a stranger.. how i wish tt i can pretend nth had happen.. how i wish tt u can get out of my life now.. i dun need u anymore.. i dun wan to need u anymore.. i noe tt everything's over when i feel nth when i met u tt night.. i dun cry anymore, i dun miss u anymore, i dun tok abt u anymore, i dun love u anymore.. everything's OVER... and yes, i noe i get my fresh life.. i'll get a new guy.. a new guy who occupies my heart more than u do.. i dun wan memories of us to haunt me anymore.. i wan to cry, but not for u.. i wan to dream, but not of u.. i wan to miss, but not u.. i wan to love, but not u.. im proud of myself, cos im over you..
phew~ feel tt im not shouldering any burden anymore.. im getting a new life.. im moving on, finally..
*i wont be alone. || 11:35 PM