Thursday, June 30, 2005
scm lectures again. omg, receiving warning letter soon.
went library to wait for andrea, june and mai.
doing our final presentation for IS.
stayed there for a few hrs. ate lunch den went for IS.
presentation was really bad.
and de qns other grps bombarded us wid were worse!
sigh. de good thing is, there's no more IS next week!
and de bad thing. no more IS on thurs.
means i only haf lessons from 8 to 10am!!
which increases de probability of me skipping my scm lectures!
argh. how? how? how?! sigh.
headed home after IS, feeling very lethargic.
was yawning non-stop since i reached skool.
wanted to nap, hehe, but went cycling instead.
cycling makes me, so me! wahaha.
oh, and my all time bestie came over to my place.
hehe. my dear dear phui hae aka pig! *grins*
updated her wid alot of happenings. hehe.
and i realised she's bcuming more n more humorous!
she told me smth and i couldnt stop laughing.
note: she's studying in simei ite.
"i've to wake up at 530 every morning and leave home very early. and when i reached home, its usually 7pm+. when i go to skool, i didnt see de sun. when i going home, i oso didnt see de sun. im forgetting how de sun looks like already."
alright, doesnt really sound funny.
but given her character, and de way she said it, its damn funny!
and we had a good time, chatting and laughing.
smacking each other, and throwing mimiyan to each other!
*mimiyan = its not daren. its de stuffed toy daren gave me!*
and i even sent her to de lrt station and hurt my toe!
im sucha good fren! wahaha. *big grins*
oh and i received a sms from her abt 5mins after she left.
"i'll not pangseh u no matter what. friends forever."
its edited la, not exactly wat she say. edited to avoid CONFLICTS.
but anyway, she's really very sweet. hearts her.
she even got me those kind of wrist bands, those very trendy ones.
with de word "friend" on it. and its in pink!
hers is wid de word "forever". so, its Friends Forever.
and now she even sms me to ask abt my toe.
oh man, i feel so loved!
yea. nth more to report.
phui hae rocks!
and i miss him so.
*i wont be alone. || 9:04 PM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
i love avatars.
to me, they are squarish pictures.
but in fact.
avatar
noun {C}
in computing, an image which represents you in online games, chat rooms, etc. and which you can move around the screen using the mouse or keys.
yeap. like this kind.
i love your laugh.
and so, i've found this avatar tt kinda relates to de previous entry.
don't label me.
get me? dun label me, if u dunno me at all.
and so, for now.
im going to
one picture says everything. BAH!
avatars work wonders. i jus love them.
i've got more than 200 in my collection.
ask me for them if u like them too. =)
*i wont be alone. || 7:31 PM
its already de 6th week.
and i've never been punctual in any of my 1st class everyday.
and im de top in class.......... for skipping class.
granny's gonna skin me alive.
if she ever find out tt my advisor wanna see me cos of de no. of class i skipped.
oh well.
i am MIA queen. *applause*
feel really sucky these days. and i seriously hate it. i wish i really could do something. but given my as-stubborn-as-maybelyn character, i would not give in. well, as least for now. and i really hate it when im being labelled as de bad person. or am i really one? perhaps. i dunno. perhaps im tinking too highly of myself. cos as much as i wanted to do smth i-tink-good for this situation, im being classified as unreasonable, throwing tantrums, losing temper and BAD PERSON. and its like NO ONE is on my side. making me really, really seems like de bad guy in de picture. oh well, whatever happen to fair judgement and justice? if its only me, making a fuss over this situation, alright, call me unreasonable, i dun care. but in fact, there's others agreeing wid wat i say, or at least, they told me they agree. jus that they couldnt show their stands. fine, to u it might be only a trivial matter, but to me, its smth that could really affect me alot. and i dun see de reason why u r so unaffected by it. or at least u show me that u r not, at all. and if so, why i am still so upset when u dun even care? so now i trying to make things difficult for myself. okay, watever. =x
i am emotional. so what? i like it.
i am stubborn. so what? thats me.
i like to throw tantrums sometimes. so what? im jus so spoilt.
i say wat i wan. so what? i call it straightforward and true.
fuck off hypocrites.
im jus sucha bitch. so what? fuck off if u hate it.
but no matter wat i am, i am NOT UNREASONABLE!
i could be reasoned wid.
dun go round telling pple tt i cant when u never even try to.
~!@#$#!!~
and i trust pple becos i treat them as FRIENDS.
and i treat pple as FRIENDS becos i TRUST them.
*i am a lie detector. so pls dun be a liar.
it wont break my heart, but soon, i'll break urs.*
and i do ACCEPT COMMENTS. be it positive or negative.
and i wont BLOW MY TOP jus becos u say im QUICK TEMPER.
i do things for A REASON. and i dun ALWAYS TINK TT IM RIGHT.
i dun lose my temper or throw my tantrum for NO REASON.
i dun give a "black face" unless im being PROVOKED.
i dun jus hate pple jus becos they OFFENEDED ME.
wat im trying to say, and again, I AM NOT UNREASONABLE.
if really one day, im not stubborn anymore, i listen to watever pple say, i agree to watever do, im no longer spoilt, i no longer have any stand, i dun throw tantrum, i dun lose my temper............
beware, there's an evil spirit in my body. tts definitely not maybelyn.
for pple out there, who dun understand me,
or used to tink tt they actually do understand,
now i hope u guys REALLY UNDERSTAND ME.
im sure watever i say its UNDERSTANDABLE.
read it CLEARLY before saying smth NOT TRUE abt me again.
the end.
*i wont be alone. || 10:32 AM
Monday, June 27, 2005
haven really been following my work.
yea, so this explains de time im blogging now.
taking a short break before perishing wid my notes.
had great fun eating on saturday night.
wid kristen, ange, huanzhi and liangzhen.
well, was supposed to meet them 730pm @ kallang mrt.
but huanzhi and me turned up abt an hour late.
seriously, it wasnt our fault. blame de mrt system, really.
im not guilty!!!!!!!! hehehe.
headed geylang for our feast!wahaha. had really nice food there.
beef hor fun. frog porridge. towhuay. "shao bing". "xiao long bao".
and de highlight of de night.
FERMENTED BEANCURD!!! =x
my goodness. hahaha.
we walked for like almost an hour b4 finding de shop.
and really, it stinks! hahaha.
about 5-6 shops away, we knew we're reaching de shop le.
and it really smells like shit lo.
"smells like shit" is not de description, its de fact! smells like real shit!
but still, im willing to try it out, unlike huanzhi!!! hahaha.
erm, and de taste of it, dun remind me again. haha.
i swear thats my first and ONLY time eating it!
yah, so fermented beancurd. fried wantons. steamed egg.
oh, de steamed egg is very nice. its sweet and gingery.
binghui and his frens den came joined us @ de smelly tofu shop.
they got lost and took abt 2hrs to find us. hahaha.
too bad they missed all de good food.
yah, after steamed egg. towhuay again, and its so yums!
finished eating and everything @ arnd 1130.
took bus 67 all de way to bt panjang.
me and kristen, spotting alot of nice food along de way. lol.
have decided to have a eating outing every month.
we're not done wid geylang yet, yea, so next mth. hehe.
alright, gotta get back to my notes.
they need attention. hehe.
ciaos.
*i wont be alone. || 3:06 AM
Friday, June 24, 2005
i've to wake up so early jus for 2hrs of school!!!
and finally, for my 8am class, i've break new record!!
today im only 5mins late for class!!!
and i still got time to buy spring roll from canteen 1.
muhaha. how proud of myself. lol.
met grace to pass her disc, met liangzhen to pass him camera.
was raining, and its damn cold.
met up wid a girl from Yahoo! Auctions.
hehs, bidded a top from her for only 5bucks!! woah.
headed home. cooked myself some lunch. and had a short nap.
wat a day, =x
seems that things still remain as bad. guess me and grace would have to work things out ourselves. its okay, we'll be fine wid each other. nth gonna matter. but still, its rather disheartening. having a frenship for a couple of yrs and poof! jus gone liddat. watever it is, whoever come in or out in my life, doesnt make any difference. de world is still spinning, and im still breathing. -_-
oh well, alot of things running thru my mind.
i dunno. hasn't been feeling right lately.
couldnt really enjoy anything. =x
hopefully, de upcoming events could brighten me up.
tml's makan trip and sunday's sentosa trip.
oh man, this sports camp peeps are damn happening!
outings, and more outings. lol. its like never ending.
woah, feel good abt this, like sports camp never end. i like.
thou i always feel tt there's smth missing, but still, i like!!!
nth more to report. ciaos.
miss him, and always.
*i wont be alone. || 4:09 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
noun {C}
1 a person whom you know well and whom you like a lot, but who is usually not a member of your family:
2 someone who is not an enemy and whom you can trust:
i remember posting this defination of friend some time ago. or did i not? watever. and now, bcos of de same reason, im saying this again! F-R-I-E-N-D is just a 6-lettered word which has this 2 stupid meanings which means nth at all. and wat? promising me that u would change for de better and do reflection on urself. yah yah. how long does tt FUCKING promise and reflection lasts? 1mth? 2? or u din even bother to remind urself of tt promise. i dun expect u to be a perfect fren. i dun expect u to always be wid me. all i need is jus a FAIR TREATMENT! u get me?! FAIR!!!! i dare not say im a very good fren tts always treat u damn well. but i believe i've done my part and im FAIR enough. and wat now? we're having probs and i need a THIRD PARTY to help us solve this?!?! who give him de right to do tat? fuck him. is his shoulders de ones u cried on when u're having de most hard time? is he de one who picked u up when u r FUCKING UPSET AND NEED SOMEONE?!?! jus bcos now de status is different makes him de king eh?! damn. and, continue listening to watever he says, following his ass wherever he goes. dun come crying to me AGAIN if u make de same mistake. to think, im actually a very impatient, bad-tempered person, and i've been like tolerating ur incorrigible behaviour for so long, and forgiving ur childish mistake made earlier on, and yet, im still being treated like a pile of dirt. perhaps worse. and tt fucking bastard tts trying to help solve this issue, is actually more concerned than u. wtf. so wats this frenship to u? some toys? when u're sick of it, u chuck it aside. den when u feel like playing wid it, u'll pick it up and say "sorry, i shldnt have been so rash". so shld de "toy" say "oh thanks for wanting me again" or "fuck off you bitch"?!
so maybe everything shld be like this now.
de "fren" : i dun wan this toy anymore.
"toy" : sobs.
third party : u shldnt be like this. u shld try to communicate wid them.
de "fren" : okay, i'll listen to you.
*and picked up de toy*
de "fren" : oh im so sorry i threw u away, AGAIN. i promise i would change for de better and reflect myself and i assure u tt i would not to tt AGAIN.
"toy" : @#@&$@&@#
watever lah. do watever u wan. i dun care, anymore.
*i wont be alone. || 11:01 PM
oh well, trying to maintain de happiness i've got last fri.
yup, tok about my indonesia trip.
specifically, de place tt i went was Tanjong Pinang.
my granny's hometown.
she always told me she's an illegal immigrant who swam her way to spore.
hmmm, not a fruitful trip, tts sure. no time to shop!!
but, nothing much to shop there as well lah.
but i saw this adidas jacket at a DAMN cheap price lo!
they jus dun allow me to buy.
true enough, de jacket's authenticity is doubtful. -_-"
alright. pictures say a thousand words.
shall see de pics i took at indonesia.
alright, pardon my zilian-ing. hehehe.
suddenly love to take reflection pics. hehs.
before leaving home. notice tt skirt? its my "new" skirt.
at bugis mrt station. hehs.
mummy and me, at tanah merah ferry terminal.
tts my ferry boarding pass! hehs.
de passengers were full, so we were allowed to sit at de cabin.
how cool!!!
in de ferry, wid my shades, ready to zzz.
tts my granny, caught wid shades!!
my mummy, wid her "tissue facial". snoopy prints on it.
i feel so light on de deck cos de wind is so strong i feel tt i could be blown away.
she jus wouldnt take a pic wid me!!
me again. hehs.
my mum, wid my shades, sleeping?!
finally took a pic wid my dear granny! my bracelet's so nice!
close-up! pearls, pearls, pearls!
tts de ferry tt we took. falcon 3!
a nice construction at de ferry terminal in indo.
in de 1st car i took in indo!! only took this car once!
another reflection @ my 1st granduncle's house. hehs.
indo kuehs!! de one on de extreme right is nice!!
de green thing sticking out is actually chilli!! omg.
de address of my 1st granduncle's house.
tts 1/2 of de backyard.
they're building a little room or smth at another 1/2.
went to my 2nd granduncle's wife's sister shop.
vegetarian satay beehoon. it costs 5000rupiah, which's less than $1!
*burp*
in de shop. hehs. hearts this pic.
me and my damn sian mom.
de only customer in de shop. hehs.
tts de 2nd car tt we always travelled in. plate no. 8300!
its my 2nd granduncle's car!!!
my mom, granny and 2nd grandaunt, in gossiping sessions.
me and $$$. im holding 290,000rupiah, which's equals to abt $50!
me in car no. 8300's front seat!! hehe.
tts de another house i went, de one tt my granny grew up in!
its also my 2nd granduncle's place now.
guess wats my mom eating?!!??!!?
*hint, smth extremely smelly!*
guess.guess.guess.
granny's eating it too.
*hint 2, there's a building in spore which look like this.*
got it!?!??!
if ur answer is DURIAN, damn, u r right!!!
i hate it!!!!!!!!! i was miles away when they eating it!
while they eating their favourite, im doing my favourite!
dogs @ my 1st granduncle's place.
dog says "woof, im miss universe!"
thats where we stayed for tt night. its like a chalet, wid 3 rooms.
i slept in W420, but de battery died on me when i tried to take it.
tts how it looks from outside.
and again. looks cool i tink!! and it only costs $60 per night.
well, after tying my hair in a bun for a whole day, i expected some curls!
and obviously........
it failed. my hair is jus too straight, it cant curl!!!
dressed up for wedding dinner, i like my retro look!
waiting for car no. 8300 to fetch us. hahaha.
tts my mommy. some say she looks like my sister instead! -_-
guess whats this? haha. answer at de end of this post.
tts de stage in tt restaurant. wahaha.
"Sam hearts Yani". yani is my aunt's indo name.
there they are. walking down de aisle. hahaha.
cutting their wedding cake. how envious!
their wedding cake. omg, this is actually a real 3layered cake!
mom and me. hehe.
aunt yani, aka, joanne, and me.
to prove that de cake its real. omg! they cut every layer of it.
and there's 3 flavored layer, choco, strawberry and vanilla!
tea ceremony, hehe. tts my granny helping.
no wonder they say women look de best on their wedding!
oops. tts my messy dining table, and my food!
opening champagne, careful uncle sam, aunt joanne is scared!
still opening tt champagne. hahaha. lousy uncle sam.
uncle sam says "dear, are u scared??"
oops, de champagne glasses toppled. hahahaha.
"jiao bei jiu". so sweet!!!
how sweet are they!! i hope to get married too!!
"yammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm seng!!"
their family potrait.
uncle han(aged 17), aunt ping(aged 19), aunt joanne(aged24), uncle sam(aged 35), 1st granduncle's wife(aged unknown), 1st granduncle(aged unknown).
my uncle han is younger than me!! haha.
i've got an aunt who is a few yrs younger lo! argh.
bridemaid(also de groom's sister), bride, groom, bestman(also de bridemaid's bf).
singing love ballads. how sweet!!!!
me, aunt mian, aunt joanne, aunt mei, aunt ping.
all de "aunties". wahaha.
they're so matching!!
my 3rd granduncle's wife and me. she dotes on me alot!
uncle Rudi Wawan(aged 26), also my 3rd granduncle's son!
de one who always bickering wid me when living in my hse when he's studying in spore.
mom and me, again.
our family potrait. dun expect me to name everyone lah.
after dinner, back in my room, reflected.
and me again. wahaha.
after letting down my hair, and i seriously like my retro look alot!!!
my messy bedroom de next morning!
having free breakfast @ de place. wahaha.
my half-eaten breakfast, so traditional!
there's swimming pool there!
there's another one which couldnt be captured into de picture!
another reflection.
*note, im not wearing de same thing okay? its different!!!*
tired of waiting for car no. 8300. hehe.
jus woke up aftering wating for eons for my granny and all to pray.
argh. i wanted to take pics of de place but mom says NO.
me and aunt mian. still waiting for them.
granny and mom, shopping dried food.
and i bought this, 250g for less than $1!!! yums.
a damn cute kitty spotted near my 2nd granduncle's place!
a bldg nead ferry terminal, mom and me tink it looks paper-made.
in de return ferry, named penguin smth lah. haha.
couldnt take de pic of it cos battery died on me again.
me and beautiful sea view.
check this out. de men are brave lah. hahaha.
all u could see is de sea and sky.
yup, tts about it.
and yes, de answer for this picture is :-
its de moon!!! wahahaha. okay, im lame.
hehe. de skirt tt im toking about in my first pic,
i actually cut it myself. hahaha. it supposed to be longer.
hahaha. im ingenius!!!! lol.
this is my entry for indonesia lah.
hahaha. another entry coming up. wahahaha.
blog addicted. hahaha. ciaos.
*i wont be alone. || 6:43 PM