im still loved.
i woke up this morning, and saw a sms which slightly brighten up my day. i know he reads my blog sometimes. but i dont expect him to take what i say so seriously. oh, thats my piggy brother, smsing me and ask if im feeling better. thanks so much. i know you still love me alot, BROTHER! hahahaha!!!!
anyway, have decided not to go Genting already. =( not so happy about it lah. cos this means i could only step out of this little red dot earliest by December. jamie is going back to taipei for Xmas and New Year, and im with her. just hoping she would be clear enough to realise that the difference between JetStar Airline and Singapore Airlines, almost 400bucks, is a large sum! that woman simply do not understand the money concepts. haha.
i am feeling so useless, yes again. especially some irritating asshole said that im being paid for nothing in the office. at least i dont take advantage. i dont stay to work overtime, i dont stay to PLAY overtime. and besides, its not my fault that im doing nothing. my big boss is not here, and usually he's the one giving me tasks to do. and i've already asked Robyn a couple of times if there's anything i could help her with, but there's nothing already. she says she will talk to Mr. Lim, my General Manager and will talk to me again. i dont understand, if this department doesnt need me at all, why in the first place offer me this position? im not trying to blame anyone for my plight. just that i cant do anything but to feel so useless everyday. i just wish i got something to do, just anything.
argh. jamie's brother is going back to taiwan on the 10th. i must get him to buy things for me. argh! so many things to buy, so little money! help!!
ps: my Superman. =)
*i wont be alone. || 10:35 AM
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
concussion.
i am seriously not feeling well. its another one and a half hour before i could go off. or should i go off now? i dunno if im sick or not. im just feeling uncomfortable and super ill. i had no idea whats going on. maybe its because of the fall last night. i was walking to my kitchen and my grandfather was telling me something. before i could hear him properly, i already set foot on the super wet kitchen floor and BOOM! i fell on my back, and heavily knocked my head on the ground. okay, so my grandfather was saying 'the floor is wet, pls walk carefully' but i was too fast for that. OUCH! tears rolled down uncontrollably and i was in great pain. i cant even sleep properly at night. when i woke up this morning, i wasnt feeling any better. but i really feel very sick now.
i want to go home. should i stay till 530pm or should i just go off now? but none of my superiors are around. who am i to inform? jason told me i should just wait till about 5 before going off. whats the point? i dont want to wait so long because it would be very crowded during that period. and i am really not in the condition to squeeze in a bus/mrt. i just wish there's someone to tell me something comforting, i dont know what, just something.
my third week as a perm staff at SKL. dont really feel like this is a place that i should be at. i dont know what will happen when the next intern comes in. but work is not good, not enjoyable, not fun. but its not up to me to make decisions. i know that.
great. at least there is something to calm me down, to make me feel better. his voice, his smiles, his slience, and everything. Jam. my sweet Jam.
ps: listening to him makes me feel like im on top of the world. =)
*i wont be alone. || 3:50 PM
Monday, August 27, 2007
i love you.
i love you, you, you and YOU.
21st August.
Happy 20th birthday to Chay Phui Hae. ha, woman! you're old! hit the big '2' already! bleahs!
24th August.
Happy 18th birthday to Jamie Lee Kong Hoon! you're legal! dont havoc okay! haha.
met jamie, peixi, debbie and florence on 24th aug to celebrate jamie's bday, also peixi's belated. went to night safari. whoo! fun! but super expensive! spent the night at jamie's place. i miss this kind of feeling. sitting together on the bed and chit chat till the sun comes up. talked about alot of things, almost everything. caught some sleep and the following day, went to kbox with them. ha. couldnt part time that night, told baoling-jie that i was having period and wasnt feeling well, its partly true lah. but mainly its because im too tired. =x
had mahjong game with ling, jamie and peixi on sunday. i really miss those times. it had been BLOODY long since the four of us sit together like this. i treasure the moment alot. after mahjong, watched movies on laptop, had macdonalds delivery. i love life with them. my life wouldnt be complete with any one of them. i love you girls. three of you.
the fourth big YOU.
Jam, i love you. Jam, i love you.
To Be With You.
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside, I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
ps: my baby Jam, sings it like nothing on earth. the stage is yours. <3
*i wont be alone. || 1:33 PM
Friday, August 24, 2007
awfully disgusted.
i swear, i solemnly swear that never in my life, had i hated someone this much. he must be the worst type of guys that one could ever meet. i used to think that zhenwei is the worst, now come to think of it, he's not so bad afterall. *shivers* i never imagine that such a jerk (the worst kind) could even exist. i feel so ashamed that i am even friends with him. gosh, thank goodness my sufferings would end in less than a month. and i swear, for any reason at all, i wont even want to see him ever again. so irresponsible, mean, inconsiderate, egoistic, obstinate and whatever negative description that you can find in a dictionary. oh god, or whoever's in charge of destiny, i plead you, for the rest of my life, not to let me come across such a breed again, please. thanks a million. =)
alright, been some time since i updated my blog. ha, dont have any additional time ya. so anyway, i bet i have not mention something really bad that happened to me. oh my god, dont imagine it, its horrible. i've been having nightmares ever since i got the news. ok, kidding. but its really bad.
I CANT GO TO TAIWAN IN SEPTEMBER ALREADY!
argh! see how bad it is! my gosh. why? because my dear jamie has to go for her 2-month attachment during that period. and i just find it COMPLETELY POINTLESS to go to taiwan without her. so initially we decided to postpone the trip to next Feb, when its winter there. but apparently, her cousin could not take such a long leave during chinese new year season! therefore, there is a high possibility that we have to postpone it to next July/September! ARGH! thats one whole year! my goodness. i nearly fainted when i hear that.
okay, though i cant go to taiwan to celebrate Brian's birthday with him, but ITS OKAY! i know he will wait for me. hahaha. oops, kidding.
but i am still determined, VERY DETERMINED, to go out for a short holiday in September. therefore, i am, yes i am going to ignore my granny's countless objections, and i am going to Genting with my honey-coated liling in September. though its just Genting but still, at least im out of the office for many days, at least im out of Singapore. better than nothing ya. =( but i still want Taiwan.
been working in SKL as perm staff for two weeks already. everything is almost the same except that i do not have to submit weekly reports anymore! yeah. and final report is done, presentation over! woohoo! i've graduated! though not officially yet, but yes, I HAVE GRADUATED! and now its time to carry the responsibilities of my job and work hard so that people who are expecting things from me wont be disappointed. though it is going to be hard, but i am going to strive for the best. no pain, no gain. cliche, but true. for my own future, and the better life for my loved family, i will work. work. work!
ps: it doesnt matter if everything seems so fucked up now. cause i truely believe that everything would be alright, someday. peace.
*i wont be alone. || 12:45 PM
Friday, August 10, 2007
bye.
today is the last day of attachment at SKL. well, though im staying on as a full time staff, but still, ITS LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENT! no more monthly reports, no more interim, and after next tuesday, NO MORE FINAL PRESENTATION! and the thing is, i'm considered GRADUATED! no more SCHOOL! no more attendance! no more debarment! no more common tests! no more EXAMS! but yes, there's definitely more responsibilities to be officially working. pros and cons. i am moving on to another and also a very major stage of my life. maybelyn, there's nothing you cant do.
yes its the last day, and yet everybody is trying to make things difficult for everyone else. i dont want to go into details. its supposed to be a happy day.
jason drove us to work today, though an hour late. but still, thanks. and drove us out to lunch at IMM. woah! and later, driving us out to Plaza Singapura for a little celebration. =)
its regynna's last day. gosh, im feeling a bit upset actually. no one to gossip with, no one to skive with, no one to go toilet with, no one to do everything with. though there's jason lah, er, but eventually he's leaving and its going to be me alone. gosh, what am i going to do after all my fellow interns are gone?! i got seriously no one else to click with! next batch of interns?! i reckon it would be damn hard. never mind, there will be a way. and its not like im not used to being alone. i can be alone. i dont really care about cliques. =)
i wanted to update about my wonderful Sunday few days ago, but too lazy. so the summary is, i've stopped part timing at Grand Shanghai on sundays. i need at least ONE day to be free and enjoying. so last Sunday, considered the first free Sunday (i forgotten what i was doing last last Sunday ya), i went out with my sugar-coated sister, to IKEA, Takashimaya, Suntec City and Sim Lim Square. and got all the things i've been wanting to buy. =D it feels BLOODY good to have a free day like this! though a day like this costs alot, but its worth it afterall.
yesteday, went to KBOX with her again. then headed to Takashimaya. im starting to collect all Harry Potter series ya, just in case any one of you missed the previous entry. wahaha!
dear all, i know that, as my dearest friends, you people will always have the date '18th november' in mind. yes, thats yours truly's birthday. and JUST IN CASE you're already troubling on what present to get from me, pls refer to the following or you may proceed to the wishlist under the label 'maybelyn' to take a look at my latest desires. hahahahaha!!!
thanks all my dearest friends. i am so positive that A FEW of you out there will be getting me the things that i want. =D love you guys.
and PEIXI! dont worry lah, wont forget ur birthday present! and jamie's too!
ps: im getting more and more thick-skinned ya, ha i know. bite me~
*i wont be alone. || 4:55 PM
