ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
what a lousy day.
i know today's April's Fool day. but do i have to be so unlucky?
first of all, last night, i was watching the season finale of The L Word Season 5 (hey, i wasnt even expecting it to be finale!), okay, the thing is, the ending sucks. how could Shane end up f**king Niki and get caught by Jenny right on the spot? the worse part is, Jenny was just saying how much she loves Niki on the stage of the wrap up party?! oh, damn Shane. Jenny's "You've broke my heart" has seriously broke MY heart. poor Jenny.
its all Adele's and Phyllis's fault!! if Adele hasn't steal the movie away from Jenny... NO! its all Phyllis's fault! if she hasn't force Shane to break up with Molly, then PROBABLY Shane won't even think of f**king Niki! ARGH! Niki sucks!
the only good thing about the ending of S5 is that Bette and Tina got back together! yes, finally! how amazing, they just belongs to each other, so much. and how amazing, they've been together for 12 years in that show. after 2 breakups, they still came back to each other. love them~ and thanks Helena for coming back in the last episode and getting back on Dawn for Kit! yeah, the Peabodies rock!
okay, that is not the main thing of April's Fool actually. but it spells the beginning for my bad luck. i overslept this morning, very badly. and so decided to take a cab, since i've given myself the limit of taking cab 3 times a month. and today, i just have the sudden urge to switch the other route from the usual one. DAMN! the moment the cab turned in AYE(Tuas), i saw this message on the signal board, "Massive Jam on Pioneer Rd"! that is so f**ked up. and right, a massive jam, how i wish it was all an April's Fool joke. and i was caught in AYE(Tuas) for more than half an hour, with the meter increasing like hell. i paid $34 and was 1hr and 15mins late. $34!! i could take a cab from home to work for two times with that amount! maybe just a bit more! my heart is bleeding so badly even though the cab driver was kind enough to give me a discount of the balance $0.55! excuse me, how much difference would that make!! okay, it was all my bad! my bad LUCK! urgg!
April is not going to be a good month for me, i reckon. it has got a super ugly beginning and i got this very strong feeling that it is going to get through even uglier. 30days left to my beautiful May! hola~
and know what, i love ENERGY.
*i wont be alone. || 10:47 AM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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