another phase of life.

yea! i managed to get on the company bus this morning. i wish the same for tomorrow. =)

went to jamie's last friday. had dinner at Ichiban Sushi, supper at XingWang HK Cafe, and kbox at Suntec City. a splendid friday night. its been awhile since i enjoyed myself so much, especially with a very dear friend. i'm glad that things still seem the same between the both of us. i just cant afford to lose another friend. =) and peixi too.

i would be working as a full-timer in SKL soon. probably starting offically in Sept. gosh, i am starting REAL working life. not that now is unreal, just that at this moment, i am still consider a student, serving internship. and in one month's time, i will be working at a perm staff, with CPF. i know, everybody will have to go through this stage, move on to another phase of our life. but seriously, i am not that ready yet. i cannot be NOT distracted by something else, and get really serious about work. i dont know. but im afraid. ling is right, i should have more confident in myself. but how to when i know that i am actually an empty barrel. i got nothing in me, nothing.

gosh. how could i let my family live comfortably if i carry on this way? how could i let them depend on me? how could i be their support? how could i? i want to give them a good life. but how? really, HOW? i love my family, and i really want them to have a good life, not luxurious, but at least financially stable. but, i really dont know how to concentrate, in the things that i am supposed to be. sigh.

i know, i have to find my way. i will get to it, in the fastest time that i could. my dearest loved ones, not to worry, you have me to lean on. i love you folks.

ps: sometimes, its not so hard to accomplish tasks. but its hard to concentrate on them.