i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Friday, June 15, 2007
the rainy friday.
its friday! and im late for work today AGAIN. i managed to catch the company bus for only ONCE this week. yet another record. this cant go on, seriously. i cant let my pay be deducted anymore. argh, i must and i will be on time next week, EVERYDAY. =]
feeling rather restless lately, dont feel like doing anything. even simple things like writing my weekly reports, gosh, two reports not done. and i had yet submit my interim report to my LO. gosh, he says by TODAY. am i going to fail attachment?! yes i am. AH, no i am not! but robyn is on leave, she couldnt assess me! how could i send my assessment form by today?! hmmm, but wait, isnt that a good excuse to leave it till monday? wahaha. i dont understand why am i so restless and lethargic, perhaps lacking of some vitamins ah.
yes, definitely lacking of one very important vitamin, the vitamin M. the almighty vitamin M. the vitamin which could pay my online shopping. hey, so many items to buy, but so little money. sigh. work harder, maybelyn.
yeah, going to jurong point for lunch with regynna soon. such a cold weather, a bowl of hot and yummy yong tau fu would be perfect. =) ciaos.
ps: i wish i had all energy in the world. (quoted from regynna)
*i wont be alone. || 11:37 AM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.