i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
you'd never know.
some moments, when i managed to look into your eyes, there's nothing there to see, nothing but my own mistakes staring back at me, asking why? so pathetic. and maybe im not in love with you anymore, just that im in love with what we used to have.
but i am still so lost.
*i wont be alone. || 4:05 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.