i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
freak. i went for an 2hours lecture today and slept right through. thats it for school, argh my beauty sleep. met jamie and took back my charger, finally. haha. had lunch wid her and went home for beauty sleep. hahaha. granny's hogging to the phone in my room, gossiping with her colleagues again. noisy. finally hang up.
speaking of my granny, she got this bruise, huge bruise on her thighs, rather scary cos apparently she never hurt herself at all and the bruise jus appeared out of nowhere. she jus had her blood examined and the doctor said low white blood cells or smth. SCARY.
and my granny, she's giving me hell this few days. my advisor jus called her few days ago and complained abt my poor attendance. argh. so now every day and night she'll nag NON-STOP. *cover ears and scream*
ciaos.
*i wont be alone. || 6:52 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.