i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
waiting for my 10am class to start in the library now. jamie just left for her 9am class. and bad thing just happened. i read something that caused me into thinking and being moody again. why did jamie leave me at this kinda moment? oh man. i need someone now. i didnt have enough sleep last night, and now this. so i conclude, TODAY WILL BE A BAD AND MOODY DAY FOR YOURS TRULY. argh. oh no. BAD BAD DAY. =(
*i wont be alone. || 9:14 AM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.