i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
jonathan just told me something very meaningful a few days ago. "i may not have given what's expected of a friend. we are only human not perfect but beneath the imperfection lies a heart that values you the best way i know." and now, im saying this to u girls. i'll hold on to our friendship till the smallest pebble grows to a boulder etched wid moss. this is a promise.
oh ya. something to mention abt my wonderful friend, jamie. she helped me sew back de 2 buttons for my skirt! im so touched. and she accidentally pricked herself. i really love her. she's a princess(she claimed to be) and yet she's doing stuffs for me like a slave. she packed my room, swept my floor, buys me food, and now even sewn my skirt. she rocks my world.
here is my honey jamie sewing the buttons. she says she'll ignore me if i put this up. but i noe she wont. keke =)
i love u girls. what can i ever do to repay all the love tt u girls have shower me wid? i need to do something.
*i wont be alone. || 6:49 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.