ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
well. i bet this is going to be a bad week for me and my dear friends. all bad things came at one time. not only de bad Superband results. to my dearest baby sis ling, i understand how u feel abt tt matter. well it once happened to me too. but i guess this is jus life, and we jus have to face de reality and accept de fact. ling, i wan u to be happy. like how u always wanted me to be. to my bestest friend peixi, im so sorry abt ur absence for recording and results. and i noe how bad it is, when u're all alone at home, watching tt bad results, and no one is beside u to share de pain. i hope i could be by ur side too. but i bet u understand, even if we're far away from each other, we're feeling de same. to my honey jamie, sorry for making u cry tt night. i dun mean to. i noe de fight between me and ling affected u, i understand de feeling when u lose a friend. i swear, i'll hold on to u right till de end. never would i let go again. and im very sure u wont do tt to me again. as for myself, i guess besides telling ling to face de reality, i need to do so too. and besides, lately im kinda busy wid superband stuffs tt i totally ignore de voice in me, telling me de way. im feeling very 'rojak' now. and after hearing wat someone jus told me, i feel even bad. and why is it like this? it jus aint suppose to be affecting me at this moment now. i bet i got better stuffs to do. boo. my girls, pls take care of urself, emotionally and physically.
alright. last nite was superband quarter finals one results. oh well, i jus mentioned tt de results were bad. so period. but i bet de guys would definitely make a comeback. =) oh and i finally managed to eat my prata from thomson last nite. whee. too bad benjamin aint wid us. =( guess he's really not feeling good. i hope he's fine now. but supper is really nice. =) reached home wid jamie at arnd 4am plus. couldnt sleep. chatted wid peixi on fone till next morning. and finally managed to catch some sleep at 7am. =x peixi came up my place and we started playing mahjong. hahs. a good way of relieving stress. they jus left my place not so long ago. =) i hope all my girls are feeling alright now. life is never fair. no matter how hard some people try, they jus couldnt get wat they wan. sigh. so jus to tell de guys, dun ever give up. me and my girls will always be there, u guys know tt right. we'll be behind u guys, always.
oh ya, and de other day, me, ling and peixi went to expo for city harvest church service wid jonathan. woah 1st time. haha. was damn happy tt day. haha. ling too. everyone else also. haha. went town after tt and took lots of pictures all de way. keke. went party world wid ling after makaning at cinecafe. thanks to jonathan for his voucher. keke. =)
alright enough said. photos time.
in mrt, from expo to town. keke.

me in jonathan's so vintage shades. keke. =)

with jonathan as background. lol. boo~

our reflections.

again.

love my sister so much.

oh man. love at our difference. =x

my reflection.

going crazy on mrt. wahaha.

she's more than a blood sister. =)

woah, arent we lovely? keke.

look so good in funny faces too. muhaha. jk.

i love her.

she loves me too. muhaha.
17th april.
[all pics taken wid jamie's phone. shld have get VS2 instead of Nokia 6111!]
me, zilian-ing. muhaha.
jamie and me. love her love her love her.
me and prissy. i got her 1st kiss. wahaha. thanks lemon sour.
me and jonathan.
again.
again. he dunno how to take photos de lo. blur!
me and mummy yiyun. omg!
me and nah-nah.
again.
me and nanny charles lee!
me and jonathan again. =)
our 1/2 family portrait, w/o benjamin and peixi! =(
me and my beloved ling!!! =)
im tired. i noe im different from them. maybe tts wat u're looking for. -_-
*i wont be alone. || 6:02 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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