i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Friday, October 21, 2005
its been exactly a month since i last blogged. becos de only thing tats happening this whole month is rotting and more rotting.
some things to mention about. i passed all my modules, yeah. i got enrolled in de same IS class as grace. yeah yeah. and school is starting in 10 days. yeah yeah yeah.
and i didnt go for work today. and i got a BIG scolding from my granny which ended in a serious fight between de both of us. she said im lazy but i rebutted. i threw tantrums and everything. but de truth is, yes i am lazy. -_-
october is going to end, which means im turning legal very very soon. argh. i hate birthdays, really. i seldom enjoy my birthday, even when there's pple celebrating it for me. i still hate it, like how much i hate durians. sigh.
and i seriously got nothing to blog about. whats wrong wid me seriously?! SIGH.
*i wont be alone. || 9:34 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.