ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
i hate de new friendster startup page. argh. why do they always have to change de page?! argh.
today is supposed to be de official day for my holidays, today's paper supposed to be de last paper. but hell no. i've to retake my maths paper next monday. argh, when everybody is enjoying their hols, i still got a paper to take! and i got camp tt day. wth. sigh.
and i tink im having bad luck this few days. my baby lappy had crashed again. guess its de same prob, have to change de whole hard disk, and this time i got no time to do any backup at all! cos de system cant even work! byebye to all my photos, songs and watever rubbish in my lappy. hollyshit. and my baby lappy always chose this kinda critical moment to die on me. tt time was during common test. and now its during exams. argh. i need my baby lappy so much to survive for my papers. and mel center dun allow me to get de loan set de day i brought my lappy in. phew, alright, period.
had been mia-ing for quite sometime. hehe, grace cursed me in her blog, saying i got drown in Indian Ocean. damn tt bitch. haha, im so alive and kicking and ready to kick her ass. lol. poor grace, still got 2 more papers to go. hehe, going to meet her to chill at holland v after her last paper. hehe. got this feeling tt i wont be enjoying this coming hols so much, sigh.
alright, i tink im going to change a new layout, thou i still like this alot. wahaha. crap. oh ya, i remember wat i wanted blog abt last nite. DAMN! i stepped onto a LIZARD when i went to toilet last nite!! its a NIGHTMARE! but it didnt die, and its tail is not broken too. hmmm. but i felt so disgusted tt i rushed into my granny's room, and used her toilet and sat on de toilet bowl and washed my sole for ten minutes! using large amount of Dettol(is it spelt like this?) to disinfect my foot! argh. and i tink i might be having some mental problem after this incident. i kept feeling itchy at my sole. argh. and as my room is super-duperly messy, when i walked around in my room, whenever i stepped onto something, i will freak out! tink i shld pack my room and make sure there's nth on de floor. ARGH!
okay, tts about it. ciaos.
*i wont be alone. || 11:20 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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