ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
surprise!!
im blogging @ 7.42am!!!
"woah, y wake up so early?"
bcos miss maybel din even sleep!!
"woah, y u didnt slp den?"
good qn. i cant slp!
turning and tossing on my bed since dunno when.
till i cant stand it anymore. i decided to get out of my bed.
went to market wid grandpa. woah. they should buy 4D.
bought home a sumptous breakfast.
waiting for them to digest now. hehs.
usually if i din slp for de whole nite, and by this time,
i should be getting ready to slp.
but i cant! bcos miss maybel has to go to skool @ 10+ later.
argh. i din wan to go actually. hehs.
but since im already awake! i shld be a gd girl and go for my meeting.
argh. and i cant go for chalet today!!! wth.
i wanted to go. i told peeps im going.
i told grace im going wid her.
but now im going to be stuck wid 2 kids to help them prepare their oral!!
argh. tuition! tuition! tuition!
haix. i hope de kids fail their exams and their parents would juz sack me.
hahs. but too bad. im a gd tutor. they juz cant fail!
lol. jkjk. i've got my job ethics. and morals.
alright. but im still meeting my deary grace in town later.
so gotta leave early for de meeting. oops.
hahs. sorry mde peeps.
but i really miss my bestie alot. hehs.
argh. its ok. i've got no disadvantage if i dun go chalet today.
its ok. its ok. ITS OK!
but i would rather be having fun than to face 2notorious kids!
phew. nvm. nvm. maybel, u go girl.
and de weather is killing me. argh.
so sick. so hot. so everything. weather's a killer!
amazing. there's pple actually signing in msn @ this kind of hour.
hmmm. im usually slping like a pig at this hour. lol.
yea. chalet, chalet, CHALET!!
have fun, have fun, HAVE FUN!!
and sports camp is nearing.
sports camp, sports camp, SPORTS CAMP!
woah. junior sherry contacted me tt day.
she wanted to join SC. haix. she told me chun ping is backing out.
darn tt guy lah. he's in my group lo. argh.
but main point is, sherry asked if i could help try to slot her into de empty vacancy.
haix. as much as i wanted to help. i dun haf any say in it.
asked mudd abt it. he couldnt say anything either.
guess de comm wouldnt allow it.
cos there's still like X pple on de waiting list. phew.
SC is TOOOOO popular. hahaha.
how am i going to break de bad news to sherry?! haix.
sorry girl. i tried. haix. me too wish tt u could be in my grp too.
but things have to be fair and square. *claps* -_-"
this always happened when maybel got no enuff slp.
or NO slp at all. she bcum nonsensical.
i seriously got nth more to report.
but i wan to type more. to keep myself awake.
argh. nvm, ciaos. nth more to report.
finally. after so long. finally.
thank lord, love ya.
*i wont be alone. || 7:42 AM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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