i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Monday, May 23, 2005
miss maybel is not feeling good. argh. i feel like a sinner lah. feel damn bad now lah. argh. argh!!! i need someone to punish me so that i wont feel this bad! made a promise, but cant fulfil it. and de person doesnt blame me. i really wanted to fulfil my promise. and i dun mind. i admit, in de beginning i din wan to. but after tinking, i wanted to! i swear my life on it! still tell me to do watever tt makes me happy. as long as im happy, he'll be happy too. dammit. i wan to cry. i feel damn bad!!! BAD!! thou in de end i still got my wish, i got a freaking bad feeling abt it. wonder why.
if u are reading my blog, u shld noe wat am i referring to. a big, big SORRY to you. SORRY!
full of sins.
*i wont be alone. || 12:30 AM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.