i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
bye bye may. welcome june. wahaha. time really flies. and im really getting mouldy. wth. bad week, bad beginning. haix. its ok. rain will be over soon, real soon.
school's alright. oh well, i missed my econs tutorials twice. i meant to go this morning, really. thou i woke up really late, but i wanted to go. reached skool @ abt 815am. din noe which room to go to. smsed jaymie and reygenna. no reply. called alex and yuanhao. no response. so its not my fault tt i skipped tutorials today. hehs. ate breakfast @ canteen 1, alone. sian. wahaha. went for BF lecture. mertice pangseh loh! haha. din pay much attention thou. was busy wid my new found love, Melman! wahaha. goodness. isnt he cute?! wahaha. Melman, love ya, smooch* after lecture, waited for grace and went canteen 1. waiting for BF tutorials @ 3pm. slacked at library. talked, laughed, crapped. haha. tts us. went to atrium. mertice came. went for lessons. grace went home. haha. lucky girl got no more class. surprisingly, i dun dislike BF. hmmm. probably its not de f*cking POA anymore, and de lecturer's nice. haha. so i guess i might be able to clear module. wahaha. headed home. wat a day. haix. no sunshine at all.
nth more to report. ciaos.
*i wont be alone. || 11:40 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.