i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
its 1.32am and i cant sleep for nuts. damn. and i gotta wake up @ 615am to meet Hydrus @ 730am. phew. de latest one is supposed to buy everyone drinks. *sweats* i reckon it will be me. cos im still sitting in front of my lappy and blogging! i juz love Hydrus so much. hahs. they are so happening and sporting. muhaha. yawns. im tired but not sleepy. why liddat?! but thanks giap for telling me bedtime stories to try to help me sleep. lol.
argh. holidays aint so good afterall. been rotting at home since training camp ended. haix. was supposed to meet andrew from pyxis today to pass him hp. but in de end he say dun need. guess he wont like to use 3315. muhaha. haix, tot can go out gaigai sia. lol. went to pasa malam wid ling earlier on. no fun at all. phew. argh, maybe after typing this entry i could sleep.
sleep. sleep. sleep. sleep. sleep. sleep. maybelyn ong! plz go to sleep!!!!
im trying my best to control my feelings. but realised i failed. im sorry to myself.
*i wont be alone. || 1:32 AM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.