ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Saturday, April 30, 2005
*cough*
bad day. coughing and sneezing de whole day.
wth. hahs. but nvm. today's a great, great day~
phew. dun ask me why. hahs.
went out wid ling de whole day. hahs.
wee~ super duper high. hehs.
ling says its been some time she seen me so happy le.
hahs. guess so too.
maybe when im happy in skool, she din see. hehs.
alright. ling went back to skool wid me.
met up wid ronnie and liangzhen to do some freshie ID stuff.
phew. din stay in skool for long.
went to holland V wid ling. Essential Brew again.
simply love there ah. thanks lao2 for introducing there. hahs.
stayed there for abt 2hours. spent all my $$ there.
hehs. maybelx loves food. but hates fats.
headed to town. hehs.
bought a pair of ear-rings @ Hula And Co.
woah. nice. hahs. one more pair to my collection. wahaha.
saw kristen @ heerens. hahs.
shopped arnd for some time den headed to Chinatown.
went to look for mummy. hehs. love mummy so much.
she buys me battery for my fone!! yeap~ finally. hahs.
she bought 2 some more. hahs. she rocks. she's my mum.
ling din wan to go home. so headed back town again. -_-"
went to this shop @ Far East. love a top there so much!!
i wan to buy!! argh. aiming for some tops from Forever 21.
hehs. but guess i couldnt afford it w/o some help from mum.
hoho. advanced thanks to mum first. hahaha.
today's supposed to be a big day.
after de whole day of "high-ness" and "happy-ness".
now i seem to be quite upset. why? dun ask me.
well, grace asked me a question which caused me to tink.
hmmm. i guess its not right for me to be so flicker.
oh well, but there's alot of things which are beyond my control.
i wish i could tell her which is de one. but i couldnt.
alright. i've to admit. this is my fault.
but maybe this is wat a Scorpio is. oh well, i dunno.
i juz hope tt nth much would bother me.
i juz wan to be happy. and my frens to be happy.
phew. grace, i really wish to have more time wid u.
but u r always busy wid work and im always busy wid all sorts of rubbish.
phew. nvm, we'll work it out. hehs.
perhaps i'll go to parkway to watch u work again. hahs.
i would be more than glad to do tt. hahs.
why would best frens tok bad abt u behind ur back?
arent they suppose to be de true-est pple arnd u?
toking bad abt u behind ur back?! is it a kind of betrayal?
is betrayal included in frenship? yeap. maybe it is.
lies and betrays are in de same package. phew.
wth am i toking about. argh.
never mind. now im getting used to it.
being a toy. plays me when u like it.
kick me aside when u find smth new.
pick me up again when u tink im still useful.
alright. perhaps tts my fate.
den so be it.
nth more to report.
no matter how long, its all over now.
*i wont be alone. || 9:42 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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