i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
checked my results. darn. one word to say it all. sucks. fine. watever it is. peeps, dun ask me abt my results anymore. its bad. its worse. its worst. alright. a big FULL STOP to results issues.
de major prob. when de results slip arrived @ my mailbox, how am i going to stop my granny from looking at it?! *sweats* she'll skin me alive. watever. there would be a way eventually. for now. i should juz RELAX and do watever i shld do. like to go enjoy myself completely before de terrible new sem starts. maybe i shld go celebrate for going to year 2 anyway. kaox. oh great. sentosa this sunday. shall drown myself in de salty water. and great. grace baby smsed me this morning. *phew* she's safe!! hahs. oh crap. argh. i've got tuition class later. i seriously hate it. i flunked my exams and i've to go help pple pass their exams. wth. and those 2 kids are horrible. come to tink of it. my bad results might be de beginning of some gd happenings. i could save myself from some disgusting scenes tt i always hated. save myself from some incorrigible pple. save myself from some unwanted fustration. perhaps tts not so bad afterall. alright. self-comforting.
no more bad things coming up plz. i need a break.
*i wont be alone. || 3:43 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.