i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Monday, March 28, 2005
alright, last entry before i perish wid my ITL notes. shouldnt be mentioning this, but econs paper sucks. guess will be seeing uncle richard again. shall i "yeah"? damn. my life is totally screwed, upside down, inside out. am i too sensitive or is this f*cking world? damn. fine. watever it is. everything will change eventually. nothing lasts forever. argh, i dunno wat am i saying anymore. im suffering from serious brain damage after econs paper. fine, im done here. gotta get back to ITL. sucks.
i want to leave. but i will survive.
*i wont be alone. || 11:45 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.