ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
time to change de way i start my entry.. 'blogging', how boring.. haha..
hate morning class!! woke up late again, and was late for ITL class.. sorry denise darling.. hahs.. she's so nice to help me carry my lappy when she knew tt im still damn tired while we walked to blk 56.. hahaha.. mr. ng kept making fun of me in class lah.. piangs.. haha, everytime ask me to ans qn when he jolly well noe tt im not paying attention.. haha.. thank god someone invented MSN, and thanks benben and xiaoming for telling me de ans thru MSN.. haha.. after ITL lecture, its PAC lecture.. damn sian lah.. i hate accounts ok!! slack thru de whole lecture.. haha.. as usual, other than me, denise n grace, all de girls in our class skipped lessons.. haha.. they juz hate de teacher..
went canteen 1 for lunch wid my sisters.. haha, its always me n my sisters.. whoa~ after lunch, headed library.. main purpose was to start my ITL report, which is due on friday, but wth, my grp members went to play pool!! oh god, kill me! so slack in de library wid my sisters, jying, kim, diyy and benben who was sitting alone at another table.. poor guy.. after denise n grace went for their maths lessons, started studying for my ITL retest.. oh god, y everyone tink its so easy when it seems so tough to me?! phew.. well, manage to finish de paper wid a teeny weeny bit of confidence.. haha.. and poor mr ng was sitting inside de classroom waiting for darren to come for de retest when i already tell him tt most probably he wont be coming.. haix.. darren ah darren.. didnt sajc juz reject ur application?? haix.. brainless guy.. slacked in de library till 5plus and went for de sports camp GL interview wid denise n grace.. i went thru mine ytd.. phew.. sports camp, plz say 'yes, u wan me.' lol.. had a dream last nite, de person in charge telling me tt im not chosen for sports camp.. phew, hope its opposite in reality.. hahaha.. was feeling quite down initially.. thot tt my day wld juz end like this.. hehs, but guess god still pity me alot.. im still captured.mesmerized.smitten even when eyes werent on me, smiles werent to me..
after de interview, me n denise headed to diyy's house.. whoa~ i found my new boyfriend there.. his name is xiao huang.. oh my god.. so damn cute!! keep on biting my leg lo, poor guy, muz be having a hard time sinkng his teeth into my thick jeans n socks.. haha.. oh ya, he's a cat.. hahahaha.. he's so damn ke ai!! jiying, plz dun be afraid of him, he's now my boyfriend.. haha.. xiao huang, i love u!! hahaha..
maybelyn is feeling useless now.. maybelyn is a big big coward.. maybelyn is a moronic, idotic dumbass.. maybelyn is more dumb than denise darling.. maybelyn is a good for nothing.. maybelyn juz sucks.. phew, maybel ah maybel, is typing smth in MSN conversation window so difficult?? oh god, show me de way.. phew..
its piak's birthday today.. happy birthday my gurl!!
yawns, tired liao.. update again bahx.. nitey peeps.. muacks everyone..
*i wont be alone. || 11:43 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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