ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Monday, February 21, 2005
blogging.. hehs.. was on de extremes today..
last wkends were bad.. very bad, so sianx.. rotted at home on sat and went to queensway and spent ALL my money on sun.. hahs.. bought my running shoes, Nike.. Just Do It.. hahahaha.. and bought myself and denise Nike shoes bag, saved a few dollars by bargaining wid tt uncle.. haha, sorry uncle..
went to skool @ 8am today.. damn tired.. went jogging wid denise darling and gracey baby.. sorry to my dearest sisters, i got bad stamina.. hahs.. my dearest sisters got lessons @ 9am so din jogged for long, thank god.. haha.. went to library and slacked for some time when denise smsed me and say they decided to skip BCA class bcos neither of us brought lappy.. so we went to canteen 1 for lunch den library to watch movie.. oh, canteen 1 was good today.. heart nearly stopped when eyes met, and smiled.. extremely mesmerized by those dazzling smiles.. oh god, u muz be playing another joke on me..
everything is going to come to an end.. watever has to go, MUZ go.. last nite would be de last time i ever shed tears for u.. i need to move on, i need to forget u.. went to queensway ytd, to pick up all our perfect memories there, and keep in it de safe, locked it and threw away de key.. thou IKEA says "its ok to change your mind", but i aint going to change mine.. reminiscence shall stop and never begin again.. all wounds in my heart would be healed.. i will slice u away from my heart and shall not be in pain, cos i found my anaesthesia.. in other words, my heart is letting u go.. i've made up my mind this time and i will hate myself forever if i change my mind again.. i've always been like a Gemini when it comes to u.. but this time, i shall remain as who i am, a Scorpio, determined.. goodbye, my love.. im sure and hope that u would find someone who share de same thoughts as u, who can understand u.. i noe, i could nv be de one..
so solemn.. duh.. oh ya, congrats my darling denise.. she found her love.. wishing them everlasting love.. thou she refused to accept my testi blessings.. haha.. and Mr. Pang, if u happen to read my blog, listen up.. u better treat my darling well, if not, i'll rip ur head n skin u alive.. hahahaha.. good luck for de both of u..
update again.. take kares..
*i wont be alone. || 3:57 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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