ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Thursday, February 10, 2005
blogging.. its Chinese New Year!! whoo!! gong xi gong xi, fa cai fa cai.. hehs..
its rooster year.. and fortune tellers said tt its not a good yr for rabbits.. me.. lolx.. i dun feel joyous this new year.. no festive mood at all.. everything's like so dead.. reunion dinner wid granny n grandpa was fine.. but i juz feel like its normal dinner everyday.. countdown was worse.. no mummy, no grandpa.. only me n granny.. grandpa had to go to work.. poor grandpa.. thank god there's my denise darling online wid me, webcamming.. and jason too.. muhaha.. de 3 of us were webcamming wid each other, and when de tv host announced its time for countdown, de 3 of us ran away to countdown wid family at de same time.. de images were cute.. lol.. din stay up too late tt nite.. kai called me juz right b4 i went to bed.. tok for awhile den say gdnite.. he's so sweet..
1st day of new year, woke up at 12plus.. gosh, tts de lastest i've ever woke up on 1st day of new year.. lol.. guess granny was lazy as well.. reached great-grandpa's place arnd 1plus.. muhaha.. thou im not de youngest there, my 'rank' is de lowest.. hahs.. i've got a auntie n uncle there who is only 10 n 8 yrs old.. how hilarious.. hahs.. and my eldest uncle n auntie are in their twenties.. hahs.. funny family.. saw my damn cute uncle, called aaron.. muhaha.. he looked so much like edison chan sia.. damn cute!! muhaha.. and one big thing, i got bitten by my auntie karen's dog, on de 1st day of new year.. god! haha.. its painful man.. but de dog is cute lahx.. hahs.. another dog is cute uncle aaron's family dog.. hahs.. its called natalie.. lol.. and she's so cute! its yorkshire.. damn cute!! lurve dogs~ hehs.. din stay there for long.. granny got mahjong session.. lol.. reached home and rot.. boring..
2nd day of new year.. worse! woke up @ 3plus n realised tt grandpa's still slping n granny's already missing, off to mahjong session again n she din bring me along!! argh~ online n rot.. den went out to meet mummy.. whoa.. got a big angpow from my mummy's fren.. hehs..! after tt went to eat dinner wid dad n mum.. den go to a temple to baibai.. was looking at de chinese horoscope thingy, and it stated tt its really a bad year for rabbits.. haix.. but its a very good year for dragons.. thank god.. reached home n rot again.. haix.. this new year is so dead man.. i nv tried slping till 3plus during de first few days of newyear!! gosh.. its so damn bored! and there's skool on de 3rd day of new year.. phew, at least got some life.. haix.. and all my angpows shrinked sia.. tot de economic is better liao.. how come shrink?! duh~ hahaha..
update again bahx.. niteys, n gong xi gong xi..
*i wont be alone. || 11:50 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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