ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Friday, October 01, 2004
blogging.. quite a tired day... hmmm... today is my last thurs in skool for lessons for this sem... ocom had ended.. as well as s&w... kinda miss my ocom klass n hiphop klass...
hmm.. ocom... done my formal presentation today.. oh.. its terrible... i was like luffing when im presenting.. haha... so 'formal' rite... haha... thanx to yinggie lah... her face juz make me luff loh.. piangz... i wear de blouse tt i bought as Osmose ytd... hmmm.. its a pink & green blouse... den my bottom i wear a simple black pants... oh well.. look rather formal... machiam a real office lady liddat... wahaha!! hmmm... haha... but de blouse is abit like too small... i wanted to buy a bigger size.. but den it bcum like too big... haha... so get de smaller one... cos it actualli could fit juz nicely... juz a bit tight... den in klass keep on like revealed liddat.. gosh... still need adrian to remind mi loh.. piangz... haha.. n den he smsed me kajiao.. pengz... haha... stupid adrian...
den after ocom... faster walked to studio to get ready to change... haix... for hiphop! whooha!!! hmmm... den today haf to dance barefooted... kinda hard... some movements r difficult to do bcos im not wearing proper shoes.. gosh.. today s&w is our last one.. sad.... so sad... there's no attachment to NRA... even sad!!!!!!!!! den anne say there will be a dance camp b4 our skool starts for next term.... which abt de end of nov... gr8... at least there's still some happenings... whooha!! haix.. but will miss de grp... hmmm... jj, anne, charmaine n many more! oh ya.. n another anne... our instructor!! she's damn cool!!! i worshipped her, man!!! she's realli cool!!! den meet bloody denise.. she's having dinner in skool... hmmm.. after saw desmond... whoo.. he treated us fries... thanx dessy... -oops- dessy sounds like a gurl.. okie.. thanks des!! muhaha... den headed back to my home sweet home...
wat a day... still feel numb after today's skool... feel like strangling myself to death n let my body rot like nobody business.. hey!! anybody would care out there!?!?!?!! would anyone care?!?! i doubt so... thou there's laughter when im in skool.. but de world still seems so dark... gosh.. im getting more n more argh!! i dunno wat word to use to describe me!!!!!! tragic!!!! pathetic!!!!!
nth more to blog le... update again.. oh ya.. thanx Stranger for tagging... thou i dunno who u r, but thanx for trying to gif mi some help.... whoo... thanx!!
*i wont be alone. || 1:31 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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