ooh-la-la.
i hasten to laugh at everything
for fear of being obliged to weep
laughters and tears are both reponses
to fustration and exhaustion
laughter gives us distance
it allows us to step back from an event
deal with it and then move on
but i too believe those who don't know
how to weep with their whole heart
don't know how to laugh either.
one of the worse feelings in the entire world is knowing that you arent good enough,
what's even worse is knowing at the same time that you'll never be.
Monday, August 16, 2004
yo, me blogging again.. sian diao.. haha.. kinda sad today.. haha, am i sad everyday?! T.T
last night, bcos of someone, i agree to wei de condition.. y am i so stupid? bcos of someone tt doesnt even noe i like him, bcos of someone tt only treat me as a little ger, i sacrifice so much? wth!!! y am i doing this? gosh!!
idiotic wei!! threaten mi like this!! u tink i'll be happy? dreams on.. i'm onli doing this bcos u threaten me tt u will beat him up!! i'm doing this for him!! i will nv be happy wid u anymore!! i hate u so much!! to de core!! i say again, i hate u to de core!! u will nv be in my heart again!! ah!
im suffering so much for, do u noe tt? will u ever noe how i feel? will i ever let u noe how i feel? i wont.. this is de prob wid me.. i nv tell a guy i like him.. y? i dunno..
kai is another eg.. i like him for so long le, yet i dun ever haf de courage to tell him i like him!! y am i such a coward? is saying 'i like u' so difficult? if i ever told him tt i like him, wat will it be like now? perhaps better..
mentioning kai, quite happy about smth he say today.. he say tt im cute, n he like watever i am too.. is he lying? not sure.. watever it is, even if he's lying, its a great lie to me.. i rather he lie to me forever! n i realli mean it.. if he bother to lie, means he care, rite? -im like lying to myself now- sian diao!!
juz now chat wid ming didi(not xiao ming oh), he's so sad.. so depressed.. i dunno how to an wei him.. i say all i can say le, he still so sad.. damn to de ger tt hurt him like this!! haiz.. love? sux!! y there muz be one party suffering? y?? y?? ah!! love issues always make me mad!! sian diao..
tml still haf to go back to sch, for make up lesson.. sian diao, not tt kind of make up ok.. mer, if u r reading, plz make it clear hao ma!! lol.. haha.. mer hao ke ai oh.. lol!!! haha.. tml dun even noe which room to go loh.. sian diao.. dun feel like going sia!! wth!! haha, maybe its a good thing too.. lol.. sianz..!! y so sian!! wats life supposed to be? kaoz!! wat am i saying?! dotx!!
listening to energy de new song now.. my fav song in this soundtrack.. yi zhi dao zui hou.. so nice!! *yawnz
:: dang lei shui liu guo, hai pei zhe ni de shi wo, dang suo you ren dou zhuan guo tou, bie wang ji you wo hui ting ni Yi Zhi Dao Zui Hou ::
*i wont be alone. || 3:18 PM
she is she, nobody but SHE.
maybelyn.
18 november.
and...
she belongs to nowhere.
she loves...
she wishes for...
she doesnt know, either.
understand;
maybelyn;
speak;
mingle;
reminisce;
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